So here’s how it is with my soul today. My heart breaks at all the suffering, struggle and pain I see. I am angry about the epidemic of hardened hearts and demonization of others. I struggle when I see the world fracturing right before my eyes.
I have to admit to myself what You already know: I have lots of ideas about how to make things better. And I will continue to do what I can when I can. But I’ve realized something – not without some pain and dark nights of the soul – as I have journeyed to this point in my life. I need to do a reset with You, so that what I do is truly Your will, and not a disguised attempt to work out my own desires or have You bless my will.
Let me make it my heart’s desire and life’s work to open my heart to the fullness of Your grace in Jesus that is unconditional, invitational and transformational. Help me do what I want to do, but struggle to do – become far more humble. Grow my heart of compassion. Let me learn to listen and understand before I do anything. Clarify for me what You are calling me to do with the gifts, experience and position I have. Nurture my resilience and courage so I may move forward when things become difficult. And always, always, always let it be about You and not me.
I am blessed by all Your blessings that shower me every day in so many ways. May my life be a blessing to You and to others.
I pray this in the strong name of Jesus.