I long to know beyond knowing that You are real. To hear from You, see You at work, be touched by You and experience how my life is transformed because of You.
But far too often, Lord, it just doesn’t happen. I look for signs of certainty, and see none. Pray for answers, and hear silence. Search for signs, and encounter pain, hurt and evil.
When I’m brutally honest with myself, I know why. It’s because I insist on You being You on my terms, You being who I want You to be, You doing what I want You to do and You caring for me the way I want You to care for me.
So help me do what I know I need to do, but just can’t seem to do – trust myself fully to You with my heart, soul, emotions, intellect and choices. This alone allows me to experience who You really are, where You really are present, what You really are saying and how You really are acting.
So let’s get on with it, Lord. Right now. Because both You and I know this is exactly why You have given me the gift of this day.